The dude gets a lot of stick from far and wide. Strangely enough most of the things that people used to say about him largely don't seem true any more. His show is far more positive now. Clearly that may relate to having reached the top. Hard to be negative when everything's going well.
This isn't really specifically about him, anyway. Like most of this blog, it's more about me. I followed @chrisdjmoyles on twitter for a while and it struck me how interspersed with the celeb trappings there was a lot of fairly normal life thrown in. Being content with sitting watching TV for entertainment, going for a drink, and so on. Looking forward to these things!
It got me to wondering why I feel like i'm wasting my time when I do them and it always seems to come back to being content with your job. I'm not saying I want to be a DJ. I don't have the quick wit, and although I love radio as a medium, in about 5 minutes of searching you can see the huge gap between people that love the medium like me and people who eat, sleep and breathe it, and these are the people that should be doing it. Stands to reason.
It's more that i'd like to get to a point where my day of accomplishment (work or otherwise) feels meaningful enough that a relaxing evening doesn't feel like a waste. I have a friend who manages to feel this way, although he works around 60 hours a week, around 1/3 longer than me, and that's going to lead to valuing the relaxation time more. Working an extra 20 hours isn't something I want to do, or at least not in my line of work.
It's all been said a million times before - do something you're passionate about. I can get passiontate about creating MI for a large company to an extent, but it feels increasingly like that's going to become more restrictive, plus it's not something I intended to do forever.
This line from Baz Luhrmann's Sunscreen has been stuck in my head now for ten years:
Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. the most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don't.
It's a great line which i'd like to apply to me, but I don't find myself all that interesting any more, or at least not to other people. I increasingly come back to realise that most of the things that I like the most aren't things that other people like, and those that they do like, I like too much to be able to relate with them on the topic. I am still the geek I always was but I decided to try to forget it for a few years. Doesn't work.
I never felt guilty about not knowing either. I don't have parents that pressure me to progress as many people do, and I still think this is a good thing. Having said that, without being pushed it's easy to stand still. Standing still is what i've been doing for a few years now. I have progressed in my career a little but where that was an easy stroll up a hill, the next bit is much steeper. I can't move on where I am without compromising and narrowing my focus, and like many others I like to have choices, doors, avenues.. Escapes routes.
Yeah so that's about it. Sorry if you assumed i'd find a way to tie that all together but I think this one's beyond that. If I had the punchline I wouldn't need to write the rest to begin with.
Still feeling pretty good in general!
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