Not that there are any particularly interesting views around here, but even if I do look out my windows, I can either see next doors kitchen, a row of back yards from the next street along, or the cars out front. Hardly inspiring.
1. Ate less crap last week. Still ate some. No mindless overindulgence. Have started a Calorie spreadsheet. I'm learning weird shit. The can of tuna that makes up most of my lunch seems to contain more kcals than practically anything else I eat. I haven't completed it yet, but my suspicion is that day to day I don't exceed the recommended intake, energy wise at least. That probably explains why I gain no real weight. The lack of exercise probably explains why I lose no real weight. Beyond that it's all about fatty deposits in the innertubes, right? Got to die eventually.
2. Enjoying the films. Pretty bored with the Internet. Trying to be more selective of what I read in my favoured RSS feeds. Poker is killing me. I don't think I ever factored in that odds-wise, if you play more and play properly (last time fuckwits, IT's not a game of luck, IT's not a game of chance, and whilst it may be poker, IT'S NOT FUCKING POKER stabstabkilkill) you have a better chance of winning than if you play less. Now I have lifted my no more than one game restriction i've played more some days, less others but more probably overall. I've managed to win bigger games like in the good old days, but i'm still fighting the current. Fluctuating around the middle ground, not gaining or losing. It's enjoyable to a point, but it's also annoying.
3. Work Christmas party gave me the opportunity to act a little less formally around mostly people that I used to work with. I now sit, at work, very near to a fair number of people that I used to work with closely, a small number whom I technically led (looking back, not really sure how much or well, but I had no official capacity anyway). It's these people I fell into the head nodding acquaintance thing with. Thing is until recently my being there was interesting because it didn't happen very often, so there was always a reason to catch up. Now i'm right round the corner again that quickly wears off, rightly so, but nothing has really replaced it. There are a few people in there i'd genuinely like to speak to more, but unless I run into them it doesn't really happen. What was the point? Right, the party at least got me chatting to a few of them, although not about much. My interests are so incompatible with the majority. It's the geekdom. I don't want to talk about this stuff. I get very irritated when people want to talk about work outside work, bu... i've lost control of this one, i'll admit it. Bad writing. Not gonna fix it. Suffice to say I am feeling a bit boring at the moment. I used to kid myself that I just didn't want to talk shit like everyone else. That's still valid, but back then it didn't occur to me that the shit should actually be replaced with something else. Silence is just boring.
4. Working my arse off at work. No idea when i'm going to be able to work on my annual goals. Once again reminding myself that I can't gain from their completion anyway, so whilst I want and to an extent need to do them, i'm not losing out by putting them off. Let's face it, these things usually happen in the last few months anyway.
5. The reconsidering thing is creeping back. Way too much stuff in my eyes and ears today about not putting things off, not following the herd, etc. All good stuff that I believe in, although just once I'd like the person touting this stuff to admit that it is possible to lose out in these transitions. The message is always do what you want to do. Earn less, be happier. What if I am happy, but can't afford my lifestyle, so am forced to switch to another lifestyle in which I become unhappy. Was that the right move? Maybe I wasn't unhappy to begin with, just frustrated. Thankfully, right now I am happy, work-wise. I want to do some other things, but I am working towards those things. They all require money, and I am saving. The good thing about saving when you're an adult is that you can do it and still make fairly big purchases out of "normal" money. The account dips lower, but eventually recovers. Saving never stopped. Probably an indicator that more could be saved, but I fiigure i'm supposed to be stimulating the economy right now. Certainly nothing else is likely to work (wish so much of my government stolen money hadn't already been spent on those efforts, and would urge you to feel the same)
6. Back to zero. It's so fucking cold for exercise. Stupid really it might warm me up a bit.
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